STOP FEEDING EVERYONE YOUR LIGHT SHINE YOURS WHERE ITS RECIPROCATED!
THESE ARE THE NOTES ON A HIGH
BLACK GAWDESS RANTS
THERES A LONGING INSIDE SOME OF US TO HEAL THE WORLD, BUT IT AT TIMES FORCES US TO LINGER TOO LONG IN UNHEALTHY SITUATIONS. WE ARE BORN WITH A DIFFERENT SPARK AND HAVE THIS URGE TO HELP OTHERS ALONG THEIR WAY BUT TRY NOT TO FORCE YOURSELF TO STAY IN AN UNSETTLING SITUATION TO MAKE SOMONE ELSE HAPPY OR TO WIN THE APPROVAL OF OTHERS. YOU NEVER KNOW, THE PERSON YOURE TRYING TO HELP MIGHT JUST BE DRAINING YOUR LIGHT TO FILL THEIR CUP. STOP TRYING TO WIN AT “POEOPLEING”, GOD DID NOT BRING YOU HERE TO PLEASE OTHERS. FOCUS ON YOU, YOUR YOUNG ONES, YOUR FAMILY, AND THE FEW FRIENDS WHO YOU KNOW TO YOUR HEART AND SOUL WILL BE THERE TO SEE YOU THROUGH. EVERYBODY CAN’T GO WITH YOU ON YOUR LIFES JOURNEY, SO CHOOSE WISELY!
EVERYONE DIDN’T COME INTO YOUR LIFE TO LAST FOREVER, SO RECEIVE OR SHARE WHATEVER THE INTENDED MESSAGE IS, THEN FIND YOUR WAY OUT. STOP CARRYING AROUND ALL THESE HEAVY BAGS, YOURE WEARING YOUR SPIRIT OUT! LEARN TO LET GO OF ALL THE THINGS THAT DO NOT SERVE YOU WELL. MAKE SPACE INSTEAD AND REMOVE THE DEADWEIGHT FROM YOUR MENTAL YOUR BODY YOUR SOUL AND YOUR BED.
LEARN TO LET GO OF THE FRIENDSHIPS THAT DRAIN YOUR ENENGY AND HOLD TIGHT TO THE ONES WHO LOVE AND GIVE BACK TO YOU WITH ALL THEIR MIGHT. I HAVE SACRED FRIENDSHIPS I CHERISH WITHOUT A DOUBT! SADLY, AS MANY OF US DO, I ALSO HAD MANY THAT I LITERALLY SERVED MYSELF TO ON A PLATTER AND THEY ATE THEIR FILL AND ALMOST EMTIED MY CUP! SO THOSE ONES WE LET GO OF AND AS A WOMAN OF GOD WE MAINTAIN THE PEACE. I NOT ONLY LET GO OF THEM AS FRIENDS, I ALSO HAD TO LET GO OF THE ANGER AND THE GRIEF THAT I WAS ALLOWING TO EAT UP SOME OF THE PEACE I HAD LEFT INSIDE. IT SPOILS YOUR SOUL WHEN YOU CARRY ANGER AND HATE TILL YOU GROW OLD.
I WISH I KNEW THEN WHAT I KNOW NOW… I WAS ALWAYS THE ONE FRIEND THAT EVERYONE CAME TO FOR ADVICE. I LIGHTENED THEIR BURDENS BY LISTENING TO THEIR DRAMA, I HELPED THEM FIND LIGHT IN THEIR WORLD THEY BURIED THEMSELVES IN, I ALSO SHARED STORIES OF MY YESTERDAYS TO HELP THEM HEAL THEIR TOMORROWS. I HAVE A FEW REGRETS THOUGH FOR IT MAKES ME HAPPY KNOWING I DID BRING SOME HEALING TO THEIR LIVES.
THERES NOTHING WRONG WITH CARING FOR OTHERS, I MESSED UP BY NOT PROTECTING MY ENERGY AND I KEPT SHARING AND SHARING THE DEEPEST AND GREATEST PARTS OF ME! I WAS JUST SO HAPPY TO HELP OTHERS THAT I DIDN’T SPEAK UP WHEN I SAW SOME PRETENDING TO BE NOR DID I WALK AWAY WHEN I REALIZED THE FRIENDSHIP WAS REALLY ONE SIDED… I FIGURED IT WAS ALL IN THE NAME OF LOVE AND I LOVED DOING ME AND I LOVED GUIDING OTHERS TO FINDING THEMSELVES. I JUST DIDN’T KNOW SOME WERE JUST GONA CHEAT AND NOT STUDY FOR THE TEST OF THEIR LIFE AND JUST MIMICK MY ANSWERS AND COPY THE BEST PARTS OF MY LIFE.
THESE TYPES OF ENERGY FEEDERS DID THE SAME THING TO ME ON MY SOCIAL PAGES AS WELL. MY SISTER ONCE SAID “IMMITATION IS THE GREATEST FORM OF FLATTERY” LITTLE DID I KNOW HOW TRULY FLATTERED THEY WERE! FOR SOME OF THE PEOPLE I SHARED MY STYLE WITH WOULD START PRETENDING TO BE ME AS WELL, LIKE HERE WE GO AGAIN LOL!!!! LAYING CLAIM TO MY SELF RESTORATION MESSAGES AS THEIR OWN, THEY ALSO STARTED TRYING TO DISCREDIT ME AT THE SAME TIME; BY PRETENDING MY WISDOM WAS THEIR OWN, MY GRACE AND VIRTUE WAS THEIR OWN INNER LIGHT. ALMOST TO THE POINT OF TRYING TO ERASE ME FROM EXISTENCE AND DISCREDIT ME WHEN I WAS COACHING OTHERS BY JUST BEING ME AND EXPRESSING MYSELF.
EITHER WAY I MUST SAY I DID WHAT I WAS BROUGHT HERE TO DO THOUGH, I MADE MANY AWARE OF WHAT IT TRULY MEANS TO BE YOUR BEST SELF, AND MANY PEOPLE RECEIVED THE HEALING AND ARE THRIVING IN THEIR LIVES. THE ONES WHO MISSED THE MORAL OF THE STORY I GUESS I DID MAKE THEM BECOME STRONGER, STRONG ENOUGH TO TRY TO TAKE ME DOWN, BUT ONLY GOD CAN STOP WHO HE HAS BLESSED! IN LOOKING BACK I NOW SEE THAT I WAS SO INFLUENCING A WOMAN THAT I UNCONSCIOUSLY INFLUENCED FRIENDS, AQUAINTANCES AND FOLLOWERS TO TRANSFORM THEMSELVES INTO ME.
I GUESS ITS BETTER TO HAVE SHINED MY LIGHT THAN NOT TO HAVE SHINED IT AT ALL, MAYBE ITS SELFISH OF ME TO HAVE WANTED VALIDATION OR MAYBE EVEN PUBLIC APPRECIATION! EVEN THOUGH THOSE WERE THE RULES OF THE GAME… WHAT ITTITATES ME MOST IS MY SOCIAL MEDIA PLATFORM BEING INTERUPTED BECAUSE I SAW ADMIRATION FOR ME TURN TO ENVY AND JEALOUSY IN TOO MANY PEOPLE WHO CAME ACROSS MY PAGES. THEY LOVED MY ADVICE, MY ENERGY, MY STYLE, MY ART, MY CREATIVITY, SO MUCH THAT THEY WOULD EVENTUALLY START MIMICKING MY MANNERISMS. I WALKED AWAY FROM IT ALL THOUGH, FAKE FRIENDS, AND SOCIAL MEADIA FRIENDS.
I NOW REALIZE THAT THE MORE I ALLIGNED WITH THE WOMAN GOD CREATED ME TO BE THE HIGHER MY LIGHT SHINED, AND IT WAS THE MORE THEY STARTED SHOWING THEIR DARKNESS TOWARDS ME. I GUESS OUR SPIRITS COULD NO LONGER MINGLE FOR GOD HAD PUT A CALLING ON ME AND I HAD TO ANSWER IT BY LETTING ALL THAT MESS GO. SUCH JEALOUSY AND ENVY LED TO VERY TOXIC FRIENDSHIPS. THEY MISSED THE MESSAGE BY PRETENDING THEY UNDERSTOOD THE ASSIGNMENT. I AM ON A DIFFERENT ASSIGNMENT; I AM JUST HERE TO HELP THOSE WHO REALLY WANT GUIDANCE IN BECOMING THE PERSON GOD CREATED THEM TO BE. I AM NO LONGER FOCUSED ON THOSE WHO ARE TRYING TO BE WHAT THE WORLD TELLS THEM TO BE.
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